If you keep asking the question "WHAT IF?", it basically means that your life is driven by regret and instead of focusing on the new, you are preoccupied with the past. Holding grudges and living backwards juggle a meaningless life with no rational values. If you hold on to your past, in all likelihood, you'll only devalue your new experiences. We all stumble over the truth from time to time. The only way to put our past behind is to look one way: forward and never look back. It may seem cynical, but we should be content in the present. For instance, I met a really wonderful person yesterday, but I won't meet this individual again. Life is a ride with no fixed destination. That's what I firmly believe in and that is what drives me every day of my life. We should always try to be above reproach, no matter what.
Sometimes I project myself playing football. Does it mean that I lean on the past? I do not consider my departure from football much of a loss, as I never quite lived up to my potential here in the Czech Republic. With my high school years thumping in the rear-view mirror, I have grown weary of the endless acccolades directed at my gridiron years, which were, let's face it, nothing but poor in every sense of the word. To conclude, those years played such a small part in my life and didn't enrich me the way some people believe they did. I started to blossom after football. Haha.
If there is one thing I partly regret, it is definitely my departure from track & field. One of the most qualified trainers and simply the best coach I have ever had almost begged me to return on the field multiple times. My cockiness and youthful indiscretion took its toll and created a hole I now need to prop up regularly. I have always been a bit frisky and have never astutely followed through on a task. The ability to spark off the edge each day, I partly owe to him. One thing remains certain: If ifs and buts were candy and nuts, we'd have Easter every day.
